Ever sense the the Friday before the September long my anxiety has been a full blown roller coaster. Using a scale of one to 10 with 10 being the highest anxiety, I would say I was at a 12 from the 15th through to the 18th of September waiting for the phone call from Montreal. I could put the rest of my reasoning down as to the how I figured out numbers but I should maybe avoid that here. On a normal day prior to September I would say my anxiety would be somewhere between 4 and 6 after I got the phone call to book a phone appointment it has ranged from a 7 to a 9.5. Right now it is at the 9.5, I was hoping that I would be able to calm down from what my mother did this morning but I am having no such luck. Thanks Mom, if I could not see the light at the end of this tunnel I am not sure where I would be maybe back in the hospital?